Trial and error
Is the game of life
Living a longtime is certainly an advantage
If you don’t lose the thread of pushing forward
Of maintaining hope
That’s no small task
The world is a game of capture the flag
And the flag
Is the highest level your soul can rise to
Narrow is the path
And the obstacles are many
And expertly designed by the one who fell from pride
(The devil)
Fasting is effective because it aims at your pride
It weakens you into the arms of prayer
Perhaps weakens
Is the wrong word
But it puts you in a station where your only option
Or obligation is prayer
That’s why through the ages religious people of all walks have mixed prayer and fasting and discovered it’s power
It’s pleasing to God to see you approach him in a season of sacrifice
This world is a freak show
More like an obstacle course than capture the flag
Or like a game of capture the flag
Through an obstacle course
Which has an upside down funhouse
You get lost in at the center
Life I guess is just life
Trial and error
Trail and error
Led me into some practices that work wonders
Unfortunately to talk about them or even suggest them
Is rife with complications
Namely because many will just cast you off as a braggart
When you suggest what works
Because often what works is difficult
Or takes a fair degree of discipline
And we are all sinners
So it’s not as though they are picking up on a thread that doesn’t exist
With discipline comes pride
To pretend there is none there
Is the stuff of fakers and false prophets
But life is always a mixed bag
To display inspiring traits
To inspire
It’s difficult to keep the poison of pride at bay
Both in yourself and the perception of others
Some people are better at this than others
They misdirect
Or have enough self deprecating grace
To pull the whole thing off without becoming an object of hate
This is all a long winded way of saying
Fasting really works
As the ultimate tool of rejuvenation
It’s a zany discipline to develop for the
un initiated
But I have it seen it work wonders in my life
And now the life of a friend who recently picked it up
And became a fasting monster
He thought I was crazy when I was four days into one which ended up going a bit longer
Everyday he’d ask me
Still?
And I said
Yeah still
It had been awhile since I fasted
And I think I had fallen somewhat off of my wagon
I needed to quit kava and Kratom
And I felt something in my chest
A slight pain
Which could have been a pulled muscle
But no matter. I wanted to fast until it was gone
And so I did
And eventually it went away
Beyond just the discipline of fasting
Now the concept of healing yourself through natural modalities has become layered in controversy as well
I don’t mean to bring any of that here now
I really don’t
Personally I’m so bored of that subject
I wish the world could just move on
And even saying that will offend some
But you can’t say much without offending many
And the world I guess has always just been that way
Part of the upside down funhouse I guess
Side note.
Your sounds are getting so fun
The squeaks and cries
You don’t just scream anymore
The menu is expanding
And watching you develop language in this primitive form is uncanny
A high pitched squeal which ends in a hiccup
Into a groan or a grunt
And then a self soothing fist suck
Signaling hunger in much subtler ways than before
Your mama went to go get water this morning
You started a cry and then stopped
I said it’s ok baby she’s coming right back
And you looked deep in my eyes as if you understood
Connections are zooming all around the energy that is all around you
A new universe being born
A miracle expanding daily.
Every day my friend would say still?
And I would say still
I was going through something
A reawakening?
A deep cleanse
After a day or so autophagy kicks in
Your body starts eating away damaged cells
It cleans up around the house so to speak
Pre cancer gets walloped
And the age falls away almost hourly
As the stem cells flood in to replace the damaged ones your body consumed in leu of calories
Still? he would say
Still
The clarity on your skin glows your eyes become ultra white
And your mind fires on new cylinders as well
Sugar creates inflammation
Not only in your body but in your mind
It makes you foggy
The world would rather you foggy and full of fluoride
Than a clear visioned warrior full of the light of prayer and discipline
Which version of you is easier to control ?
Particularly if a low vibration lifestyle has you engaging in self medication
Which is like a super highway into toxic shame
Which becomes a further beacon of your silence
But this ain’t supposed to get deep
It’s just supposed to be a humble way of suggesting fasting. Lol.
Still? He would ask
Still I would say
And then he stopped saying your crazy so much as
I’m gonna try it
To be honest I didn’t love his chances
He was overweight and full of bad diet habits
A carb machine running on inefficiency
But I told him about trace elements and how that was key
Electrolytes are important to keep the head from spinning out
To keep ultra woozy ???????? feelings at bay
They work wonders
I said the key is
No calories
No maple syrup
Just water
And tea (no cream or sugar)
No calories
And get your electrolytes
Pink salt could suffice
But find that blue bottle that says trace elements
And use that
It’s got potassium as well
That aids in a fast
(I should say now as a disclaimer that I am not a doctor and don’t do any ultra long fasts without supervision. I will however say that a three day water fast works wonders and I can hardly imagine that that would be threatening in any capacity. But I am not a doctor! See how complicated it is to talk about fasting?! Ps to the ps. The no calories is so that autophagy kicks in. If you introduce calories your body will feed off of that instead cleaning up damaged cells)
Anyway my friend went for it
And not only did he do three days
But he did quite a few more than that
It recharged his spirit
It rejuvenated him entirely
And he became a fasting monster
To the point where his relationship with it is even intimidating to me
We have a fasting club
Every month we aim for a three day water fast to reset and restore
To rebuild our natural immunity
(Ps that isn’t a pro or anti shot stance. We don’t necessarily see eye to eye in that realm and that’s ok. Amazing that. We are still friends in spite of not seeing that issue in the same way. Can you believe it? It’s possible. But I digress)
He’s unbelievable with fasting
Since my long one
Anymore than three days has been a struggle for me.
I usually soft cheat and have broth at end of the evening of day three
This dude never does
He goes for five or six or seven
He’s wild
Total keto
The other day I told him how I loved yogurt and honey and he gave me a hard time about the honey
That’s sugar he said
Haha
Ps.
I’m not entering into the controversial food debate either
People can have healthy lifestyles being vegetarian and leaning more on carbs
I get it
That’s not what this is about
It’s about (no matter what your diet choices are)
The transformative power in fasting is amazing
He changed his life
He’s skinny now
His energy is excited when talking about diet
He was never like that
A new passion emerged
A rejuvenated energy around health and healing
And the awakening of the understanding that consciousness around diet can lead to so much self empowerment around the issues of your health
It’s miraculous
And there’s probably controversy and layers of shame around this subject as a matter of design
After all
Your Ill health is a trillion dollar industry
You remaining disempowered
Makes other people rich
That’s not a conspiracy
That’s a fact
(I guess some of us just aren’t naturals at laying out information with an awe shucks humility. Lol )
Anyway I’m proud of my friend
And the inspiration I gave him
Funneled back my way
As life is a roller coaster of ups and downs
And back and forths
One day your up the next day your down
It’s all over the shop
What do you practice to hang onto your soul?
It came back around
His dedication rededicated me and so goes the cycle of life.
Fasting leads to prayer
But my friend claims none of that
For him there is no spiritual angle
Or so he says
Maybe he is just a genius of humility?
I’m on day five of a water fast.
He incidentally just finished day five yesterday (the monster)
I woulda stopped at three maybe but my competitive edge kicked in when I found out he was on one
He beats me every month
I couldn’t let him have this one
As this one is my big birthday
I wanted to cross that invisible threshold
Of the next half century
With a cleansing
A period of grateful prayer
For the life I’ve lived up til now
What a wonder
What a complex bag
Of love and loss
So many who never get to make it this far
I dedicate the years to come to them
I dedicate it to you
Young Alessia
Now more than ever longevity has purpose
I want to see you grow old
I want see the person you become
Every development and evolution is like a fascinating rainbow of miraculous complications untying themselves into a brand new level of being
The restorative power of fasting like the fountain of youth inviting you into the future of your dream
And it’s not about living forever
But the recharge and restoration of your youthful energy and glow comes back full force
In this miraculous self healing practice we’ve been given
Which for me recenters my focus
To God
To prayer
To gratitude
It becomes a season where you dedicate yourself to those types of visions
You lay off the phone
And go on long contemplative walks
Where you throw out forgiving energies
Asking to be saved and restored
To some that sounds insane
I guess
But insane compared to what?
Zoning out on Netflix endlessly scrolling a digital device?
When you break down the options in this life
The truth of what’s happening isn’t too difficult to see
It’s just that most don’t want to see it
Because to see it
Is to be challenged
And most have been trained since day one
Not to believe in themselves
Or in the magic of the world
That constantly surrounds them.
Ps.
Here’s a meditation on sin
Whatever the devil does to lock you into a vortex of shame and accusation
To keep you trapped in your past
Unable to blossom
Unable to think you are deserving of another chance
A fresh start
To the degree that you can believe the blood of Christ
Absolves you of all that is
The strength of your repentance
Whatever the devil did to try and trap you
Works against him down the avenues of your salvation
Because the blood of Christ washes away your shame
To the degree you believe it does
In Gods eyes
That sacrifice means you are as pure as he was or is
If you can believe it
You can take the knowledge of your sins
Or the devils tricks
And leave all of the shame behind
Not as reason or an excuse to keep sinning
But rather the opposite
To be grateful for your restoration
Like a precious gift you wouldn’t easily let go of
With the new knowledge your recents sins have taught you
Without the toxic shame urging you back into darkened corridors
But rather basking in the ever expanding light of forgiveness and restoration
That is the power of the blood
To really be born again
Into the expanse of your dreams
And youthful rejuvenated spirit
No matter what your age is.
The devil always gets defeated
So long as you find your way home.
And you can always find your way back
With the expansive power of prayer
And the endless light within.