We’re up here in the mountains
Highlands
And the snow fell for the first time last night in your life yesterday
In the other room I can hear you make your wake up noises
And your mama talking to you in Russian
She brought you in
To gather the bouncy chair which calms you down
I came over to say I love you and touch your nose with my nose
And hope to see you break into that morning smile
That rush of happiness
That life knows when it knows no trauma
And is surrounded by love
When you have a child you wake up everyday
In the grace of how simple it could be
How simple it all is
Love and just love
But this world is fallen so
Of the course the simplicity gets gutted by madness
I always regret my participation in that kind of madness
And we all need a healthy dose of forgiveness
For ourselves and each other in these times.
I guess at all times
But these aren’t normal times
I haven’t written much because my head has been so far down an NFT rabbit hole that I feel like my soul or half of it has bled out.
I aim to find balance and to be artist and writer again
To make music again
To come from my heart more than now and then
We came up here last night and there was a party in the new house we’re moving too
A community of intellectuals and rebels
The new Book by Robert F Kennedy Jr. about Fauci
Laying around to give you an idea of which way they lean
Although us being welcome there should also give you an idea I guess. Lmao
We were welcomed with open arms
And some of the musicians talked to me about making music for the coming revolution
I expressed enthusiasm at the idea
The fact that this community found us or we found it is evidence of higher forces working magically through us and for us
Speaking the truth or your version of it certainly opens up wild and vital avenues of adventure
But it’s not without its costs or limitations.
I felt this week enormous sadness for things that have been lost and left behind
And by things
I mean people
I mean friendships
Also things my podcast and performing
I miss those things
They made my life rich in many ways
And I don’t think they are permanently lost
But they are lost for now
And I miss them
I mourn them
We are in a war and there are a variety of casualties
But what we need to rebuild
Is a reason
Is a passion
Is the energy of revolution
And me and your mama have found that
In a place far from the city which seems hell bent on swallowing itself whole at this point.
The governor of NY declared a state of emergency in response to the new variant
And so it would seem another attempt at lockdowns is imminent
Coupled with inflation
Supplies low in stores
The police department and fire department
And health care workers and sanitation
All gutted from mandates
And long and grueling winter fast approaching
Or here
Means the city is set up to descend into some kind of dark madness
At least that doesn’t seem a paranoid delusion of a forecast
It’s hard to fathom it being a happy place to be in the coming months
So thank God we can escape into nature
Into a world that’s not obsessed by sickness and death
And the constant messages of fear
Thank God indeed.
Yesterday we woke up and your mama wanted to goto church
Her brother your Uncle Sam kept calling us both and telling us to goto church
I would ask your mama
Why is he telling us to goto church
She says cause he cares about us or something like that
We both laughed
They are incredible and strange and beautiful people that side of your family
Spiritual and seeking and true.
We went the small church we walked through our tiny mountain town as a family
I held you close all bundled up in your multiple winter onesies
It was like something out of Norman Rockwell or something
How funny life is when it winks at you like this
To go from a rock n roll life
All the way to this
As the world descends into madness
We are on the foothills of an American dream
The sermon was good
All about how fear can make you turn away from God
The love of money and seeking false idols
And I could relate to it regarding my current obsession with NFT’s
And the unhealthy aspects of that
Like any addiction trying to get a hit of good favor
But turning our attention back to Christ
Back to love
Back to forgiveness
And the motivation to do better
To be a light in our new community
And in the world at large
To understand what gift it is to create
Art and music
And to shift my focus back to those things as well
Praise Jesus.
I opened the news and CNN was blaming the new variant on the unvaccinated
The media stirring up conflict and fear and division
I wonder if people will comply or resist
I wonder
What their breaking point will be
When they first rolled out the vaccines there was a promise of a return to normal
But obviously that will never come
There is too much benefit in keeping this going
From the big money players
In the media
And pharma
And tech
It will take people simply
Waking up
To the fact that their lives have been stripped of love and light through a focus on fear and sickness and division
It will take an awakening that I’m not sure is coming
But what we can do is lead with love
And check ourselves
Check our own egos
And do the best we can to reflect the grace that still operates
In this lunatic world.
That’s all we can do
Throw light and love into the darkness.