The new year fast approaches
And so the reflection of coming resolutions
Spins in nostalgia’s rear view
As life moves on
And further down the futures forgotten tracks
I look forward to fasting and reclaiming a rock solid health regime
We’ve been eating ice cream and watching Netflix
Unwinding and letting go for a bit
But voiding discipline only works so long
Before it becomes a trap that’s hard to get out of
Life it seems
Only allows you to enjoy it when framed
By a dance of dreams you are pursuing
By a constant evolving and moving with the illusion or reality of improvement
As we sing songs of decay and betrayal
And as we sing songs of will and strength
Life doesn’t allow the cruise control option for too long
Without throwing obstacles in the road
Designing you to try harder
Evolve better
Rest in the lord
Prayer and wonder
Life is designed to be difficult
And to hedge the difficulty of it
May you find a passion
And a place for your imagination to fly
A springboard for your dreams to become
Bigger than reality
On the days reality becomes a nightmare
And your dreams offer you a reprieve
May you find a place to rest
And hide there
A place to invest your passion
And share a service for others
To also become more than they were
To rise by the calling within
To hear the calling and work with God to find a way
Towards it and a way back in
A dream is like an outfit your soul is wearing
It allows your soul to move
It gives a structure and a song to dance too
Life isn’t about being still
And won’t allow that setting for too long
Long enough to recover
Long enough to relax
But beyond that the motivation to move
To discover will build up in you
To the point where ignoring it will become more difficult than embracing it
At a certain point people lace up the running shoes
And head to the gym
They push themselves outward to survive and expand
This whole year has been a series of unknowns
Leading to further unknowns
Where we are as a family has left us no choice but to walk by faith
When life truly pushes you beyond your limits
It’s faith alone that counts
Like a life raft in raging ocean
When we can still see the shore is just right over there
But the current is pushing you out and away
So it might as well be an impossible distance
For it is an impossible distance
I’ve lost many friends
And the nature of my life has changed dramatically
And yet from within and in the major ways
Who we are is eternal and barely shifts if it shifts at all
But externally
The circumstances and the people populating your life
Shift and change
Like scenes in a play written in divine order
By the playwright in the sky
But some fountain of revelation
In other words
The core of who I am hasn’t shifted
Only the circumstances surrounding us all have
And our reactions and responses to those
By like that old vet said to me in the mountain town
People will move on from all this
And it won’t be important anymore
What they did or said
No one will care just like Vietnam
I wonder how true that is
This cataclysmic event
Is it all superficial or are souls being defined
Are our positions and reactions being written in the playbook of time
When the universe shows its audience to their seats
Like an usher in angelic dimensions beyond time and it’s defeats
Will our actions be written in the pamphlet for the show
Left there to be scattered on eternity’s floor
Or does none of this matter?
Are we simply shifting through time
Being guided by who knows what to end up who knows where?
May your dreams
Save you from the raging loneliness of despair.
2022 is coming like a freight train in glue.
I’m the same as I ever was
And also brand new
People send me stuff about Fauci and Gates
Getting brought up on charges
Crimes against humanity and all that
I’ll believe it when I see it is all I say back
Who didn’t know this whole thing was a booby trap
You’re smarter than anyone with your sweet sense of oblivion
Pursuing need and smiles as we shoulda done from the very beginning
The losses we allowed to take root
The springboards of division
All we can really do is pursue longevity and make it to the other-side
Rebuild our lives
And build them back better
For we decide
At least in part
What we do with all this
This steaming pile of insanity someone left at our doorstep
Part 5
They lay with their new baby in the center of their living room
Yoga mats and blankets on the floor
Spread out and scattered
The placenta in a pot still connected to the umbilical chord
Life moving in a strange new pace than it ever had before
This tiny being the new center of their world
It’s gravitational pull beyond any planet in the solar system
They lay beside her wrapped in a blanket
Having just come from the womb
Beyond this dimension but rather than join them here
She invites them somewhere new
And somewhere new
Is where they all go together
Pepper and Henry watch in respectful silence by the corner
Pepper knows that soon that will be her
She will bring children of her own here
She sees the hand of God in all of it
And she smiles with great reverence in the final grasp of life
Her shadows fall away dancing.
May you find a dream that’s worth dreaming
And May you be lead by earths angels into pursuing it